Head

I can't sleep. I don't know if this is a head ache I'm having or if it's just all the memories playing back in my mind. I wish I had a good reason to be losing all this sleep... like it was last week. You don't know how much this sucks. You're lucky you don't have to feel this. This pain consumes everything. This pain makes it hard to remember the past, plan for the future, and live for today. I thought I had it all. Things were back to the way it should be. Me talking to you, you talking to me - these things made life like paradise. I called it, again. You weren't gonna talk to me as much. It's barely anything anymore. Like I said "no more hi's, just byes". I'm afraid to be the first one to talk now, cause I don't want to be waiting on a reply. I feel as if I wasted all that time to even think about texting you and then sending that text, knowing it's just gonna be a one-way text. Why do I keep listening to my heart when it eventually hurts itself? I think it's cause I take that risk. I can't go any lower than I already am, so it's worth a shot. I'm just a foolish boy with a foolish heart. I don't think I'll ever have that "missing piece" ever in my life again. No one fitted perfectly as she did. I don't know where I'm going with this.. End blog.