Better.

It was nice hearing your voice again. It'll be a while until I hear it again, a long while. I have to accept it though. I know how your life is going, it's going great. I feel the need not to interfere, no matter how much I want to be in it. It's been a month since we've parted. You've grown to live better without me. School is great, volleyball is great, and everything else is great. I knew it was better without me. I'm ashamed to have let you endure through the times with me. I know I don't matter anymore. I'm not worth a reply back, it's fine. It's unfortunate to say, but you're really done with me. Sorry? I don't know why you would have to say that. You're not sorry. If you were, it wouldn't be like that. You don't need to hold back anymore. Don't feel bad for me. Just give me your 100% honesty. It doesn't matter cause I'm not your boyfriend anymore, right? You moved on. Maybe I should too.. but it's hard. I can't move on from one of the greatest parts of my life. I'm seriously a hopeless romantic. I doubt you read these too. Fuck me..