Depths

How am I doing, you ask? Well, I'm alright. I've been having the not-so-best of days lately, actually for a long while. I've recently became single. I'm not together with her anymore. Yes, her, the one who I always talked about and couldn't stop. The one who makes me feel that special feeling no one else could. My favorite word lately is: miserable. I don't intend to like it, but I'm used to the word. I'm always saying "I feel so miserable" and "life is miserable". Not only do I say it, but it's an actual feeling. I feel the emptiness and loneliness in the depths of my heart and through out my whole body. I miss her. I miss her so much. I wish I could count the seconds until we're together again, but unfortunately there isn't a timer. I'm not even sure if it will happen.

There is a light though.

For at least most of these nights, there's her. She's on the other line. Honestly, my worst days just end off great talking to her. Her voice. I can get lost in her voice like a maze. I love hearing each word, like they're coming from a goddess. I've gotten to understand what she wants. I'm slowly working on my kinks. Anyways, talking to her still completes my nights. I don't know if I said it here, but without her voice, I can't really get a good nights sleep. Knowing that I'm the one she talks to before she sleeps makes my sleep even better. She's something special. I don't ever want to lose her. Hopefully, there'll be a day. 'Til then, I'll keep trying my best.