Ache.

RE: First off, it doesn't really make sense. If I changed, wouldn't that mean I wouldn't do the same things? As in, changing to not make the same mistake again. Like, I changed, so I won't hurt you again. Truthfully, I want to never hurt you again. I want to try my best. I don't like not having you around.

The nights are the same. Last night though, I almost fell asleep early. Then I got woken up. I tried not to think about anything, but sleeping, so I can fall asleep. Thoughts of the past keeps me awake. The pain of not having it anymore keeps me up. I don't know if this is coincidence or if I have something wrong with me, but my heart aches, literally. For the past few nights, when I'm laying in bed, the right side of my chest would ache. Almost at the same time every night. I've felt this before and you know. It really is true. My heart hurts, for you.

I was ecstatic seeing your text. My body was like "woah". I wanted to do more, but I know it's not right. I can't just fall so soon. I want it to happen naturally. You really made me smile. Just knowing thoughts of me crossed your mind. It's amazing. I just hope they don't fade away like us. At least keep me somewhere. Your heart, I doubt it. Your mind, hopefully. Yourself, I wish. It's almost 4AM and thoughts of you are still keeping me up. Save me, please.